So last week my entire team (all 6 of us) plus 30 some odd others from our department all got pulled into a conference room to work on a special project for the company.  It has pretty high priority at this point and they are throwing a lot of resources at this particular project in order to get it done within the timframe that they are asking.

They decided (and it seems like it was the best choice now that I have seen it in action) to gather us all to work together in this conference room and have dubbed it a 'War Room'.  Even if what I am doing is not so epic, I love the sound of working in a 'War Room.'  Kinda makes me feel official and top secret - like a spy.  Haha.

I have to say, I am a gaining skills as a design/CAD specialist faster than I could imagine and having a blast with the learning.  There are certainly some frustrating aspects of what we are being asked to do, but I am enjoying the 'new-ness' of it all, and the learning of new skills.  I'm a nerd like that.   The people around me sometime look at me like I am a freak of nature or alien-like because of my all too apparent delight in this project. Teehee.

The really great thing about this project is that it means I will not have to travel again at LEAST until some point in February.  As some of you already know, I am asking everyone I know to pray that God will provide a way out of the current job that I am in so that I do not have to travel as much or at all.

Please hear my heart in that - I am SO.GRATEFUL. for my current job and for the Lord providing for me to get a job here at the home office. When I accepted the job offer I knew that it was going to be for at least 18 months.  And if that is where God wants me until that time comittment is through, then I shall stay and give it 110%. 

With that said, I really, really would prefer to not be traveling anymore.  I am feeling such a deep need to settle in and hunker down where I am at.  God is at work in my heart and life, but it all feel so precarious right now.  I have always hated to appear anything other than confident and competent, but right now my insides feel frail.  Weird that it actually doesn't freak me out because it is a SUPER good place to be - and I know it.  But it is still fragile and I feel like I need to protect myself in different ways than I have in the past...and one of those ways is by trying to slow down a bit, breathe and be still.  I haven't really gotten there yet, but the work travel feels like a HUGE obstacle.

The only ways out of my current comittment would be 1) losing my job (not my preferred option because then I would be forced right back to St Louis and not able to stay here in NWA, which is where I really want to be right now), 2) stepping down from my salaried position into an hourly position (again, not preferred as I really can't afford to lose my salary at this point), or 3) for them to approach me and ask me to step into a position higher than the one that I currently occupy.  Obviously I would choose number three, but I am not about to try controlling this...I have learned a lot of lessons here lately about trying to control things.  It doesn't work and it makes me tired and cranky for starters.  There may be other options that I am just not seeing...and I am willing for the Lord to provide in whatever way He picks (wow, that makes me nervous to say out loud) - but the long and short of it is that I would really like to be done traveling so much for the time being.

So there you have it.  I actually have a lot more stuff that I would rather be writing about, but I am starting to fall asleep, so it will have to wait to be written, or (more likely) forgotten

Love you girls!!