June 19, 2009

• Okay - So I am not doing so great at the posting every day thing, but I still think that three times in one week is pretty good, and so I am sooooo not putting pressure on myself. 

  I am off all day today and tomorrow - then again on Monday, which I will then pay for by having to work six days in a row, but I am not even thinking about that right now (other than to mention it here).  Today has been wonderful - a visit with Shelley this morning, then the rest of the day to hang with my family, reading, visiting, playing on the computer and just relaxing.  It has been wonderful.  The day will round itself out later this evening as I head back over to the Illinois side of the river to see 'The Proposal' with my two roomies.  We are all excited for the movie and the chance to spend some time together - for three women who live together we see remarkably little of one another, so this will be fun.

  Tomorrow will be spent cleaning, organizing and going through all of my things for several reasons - the first being that I just have too many things, and I need to try to sort through and get rid of some of them before I move back to NWA. 

  Secondly, I really, really need to get my financial aid stuff for the fall sorted out and I (REALLY embarrassed to admit this) cannot find my copies of my 2008 tax returns.  I FILED them, and I PRINTED out copies of them, and I am quite sure that I just put them in a 'safe place' - I just don't remember and cannot figure out where exactly that 'safe place' is.  Hmmmmm.  Lord help me if my memory is going the way of my mothers!    (And I mean no disrespect in that - I promise....just that she has always been a bit forgetful, and tends to be more so as she ages ever so gracefully) 

  Thirdly, I need something to DO!  I have had the hardest time over the last few days/weeks just feeling like I am in this weird limbo place.  I was so glad to be done with school and have some free time, but now that free time is strangling me and I am feeling the need to get on with 'the next thing.'

  The next thing of course is obtaining a job at the home office and starting grad school in the fall.  I feel like I am doing everything that I can to make that happen - I am keeping an eye on the jobs available down there, applying for the ones that I feel I am qualified for, continually tweaking my resume, getting letters of recommendation from influential people that I have worked with during my time in the stores, preparing for interviews, etc.  But even with all of that - there is SO.MUCH. free time and I am chaffing at the feeling that there is absolutely nothing that I can do about it right now. 

  I keep reminding myself that I need only be faithful to do what I can do, and to rest and trust God to work out the rest - but it is getting harder and harder to do as day after day slips by.  I know that it will happen eventually....but I have never been the most patient of girls, and am having patience in this forced on me.

  Deep Breath.  God is in control of this.  I need to be faithful in what he has given me to do right here and now.  For me that basically involves spending as much time with my family as possible and doing a good job at work - not getting sloppy in those things as I get less patient.  Hah.  Good thing I am a work in progress. 

  At any rate.  I am rambling.  How about a couple of pictures?

  Here are the flowers that I received from dear ones for graduation.  I put them on the window sill next to my bed...Pretty, yes?!?

  

  Ummmm - lets see...what else?

  How about a couple more of Ian and Hadassah?  I spent a couple of days with Hannah a couple of weeks ago because she was pretty sick and so I went over to play with/distract the little people so that she could try and get some rest.  It was a lot of fun for Aunt Havah, but by the time it was all over I was reminded of why God gives you children when you are young...because even though they are two of the best, brightest, sweetest babies in the whole wide world, I was WORN.OUT.  Seriously.  Sheesh.  I felt OLD.

  Anyway - this picture has too much flash, but it was the best I could get of Ian after he had frozen berries for dessert at lunch time.  They were EVERYWHERE, but skin cleans up and so we weren't freaked out about it...and of course I had him show the camera just how messy he was...

  

  After nap time we went outside for a bit of fun in the sun and playing around in the water - thanks to a tip from Jen I had picked up a couple of buckets and some extra funnels, small paintbrushes and measuring cups...after getting the kids in their swim suits, all we had to do was fill up the buckets with water for tons of fun - they poured and dumped and painted and had a blast.  PLUS it kept them busy for quite a while without the mess and fuss of sprinklers, baby pools, etc.  It was great.

  I love this picture of Hadassah - so sweet in her pink swimsuit....

  

  Signing off for now, but doing my part to keep Xanga alive...
  

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